The Rain

It's raining outside

and

These beautiful things

shining through my tears

will feel the drops

but never know my fears

how could they if I don't?

Rain drops

Falling from the trees

into the sky

and you never ask why

ignore the dots in the sky

they're not there

Rain falls

on tattooed tough guys

littering sidewalks with spit

say they're trying to quit

cigs for the sixth time

and he's tired of lie

tied together to hide

his head when he cries

from better eyes

It's raining outside

Slight stirrings before sunrise

split seconds of conscientiousness

before slipping into a sea of dreams

I always have the most vivid dreams

while the sun is rising

It's raining outside

but not in here

not in my head not in my head

You know what hurts?

When someone suddenly starts acting distant with you, for no reason. When things suddenly changed without any explanation. When a certain routine stops out of nowhere, and you're just kinda stuck in a situation where you don't know what to do, whether to move on and forget about everything because it looks like that the other person did it so easily or to confront them.

this poem is dedicated to

the people who look in the mirror

and think I'm not good enough

the people who guard themselves

with walls higher than the empire state buildin

the people who don't need water

to feel like they're drowning

the people who are in love

but no loved in return

the people who have feelings

that can't be forgotten

the people who have thoughts more tangled

than the headphones in my pocket

This poem is dedicated to

all the people who are human

but still strive for impossible perfection

you are not alone

l.m.

A letter

dear depression,

you need to leave me alone already. everyday you're screaming at me and telling me how terrible i am. you make me replay every mistake i've ever made. and you humiliate me on a daily basis. you've made it impossible to be happy. or have any  connection with my friends and family. i am so sick of you controlling me. the sooner you leave the better off i will be. don't come back either. i never want you to be apart of my life again. i hate you. and i hate myself for ever letting you in my head.

sincerely,

me.

Sadness

There are two types of sadness

there's that kind

that i want to get rid of

so i watch friends

listen to happy music 

find someone to talk to

then there's 

the other one

when you know you're sad

but you want to

isolate yourself

and just drown 

in the pool of emotions

listen to sad music

read quotes about life

drink tea

and

basically just feel empty.

[j.k.]

Wallflower

I think I am a wallflower.

Someone who observes life instead of experiencing it

A good listener who doesn't judge

Socially awkward

Not many friends

I'm the type that does well in school

I stay up all night to finish an amazing book

I love art but I'm horrible at creating it

I love boy bands and old music

I'd like to think I'm a nice person

But who am I kidding

I'm crazy

I fell hopelessly in love with this guy

Who couldn't accept me

I grew tired of being normal

So I quit because I like me.

Dear diary,

The urges came back

I'm feeling the darkness

consuming me

again,

and it hurts

I thought I would

beat it this time

but I didn't 

I am not strong enough

I never was.

I slide a blade

through my skin

again,

and what scares me

is that it feels

so much better

than before.

(e.t)

Alive.

I could write all night.

But I could never put into words

how I feel about you.

Or how you make me feel

                                  So alive.

Nothing I say can do my feelings justice.

All I know is whenever you're around,

I feel better about everything.

(b.a.w)

HOW TO LOVE YOURSELF

STOP ALL CRITICISM.

Criticism never changes a thing. Accept yourself as you are. Everybody changes, and when you criticize yourself, your changes are negative. When you approve of yourself, your changes are postive.

DON'T SCARE YOURSELF.

Stop terrorizing yourself with your thoughts. Find a mental image that gives you pleasure and immediately switch your scary thought to a pleasure thought.

BE GENTLE, KIND AND PATIENT. 

Be hatred is only hating your own thoughts. Don't hate yourself for having the thoughts, but gently change your thoughts.

PRAISE YOURSELF.

Criticism breaks down the inner spirit. Praise builds it up. Tell yourself how well you're doing with every little thing.

SUPPORT YOURSELF. 

Find ways to support yourself. Reach out to friends and allow them to help you. It shows strength to ask for help.

BE LOVING TO YOUR NEGATIVES. 

Acknowledge that you created them to fulfill a need. As you find new, positive ways to fulfill those needs, you can release the old negative patterns.

TAKE CARE OF YOUR BODY. 

Learn about nutrition. What kind of fuel does your body need to have optimum energy and vitality? Learn about exercise. What kind of exercise can you enjoy? Cherish and revere the person you are.

MIRROR WORK.

Look into your eyes often. Express this growing sense of love you have for yourself. Forgive yourself while looking into the mirror. Talk to your parents looking into the mirror. Forgive them, too. At least once a day say "I love you."

DO IT NOW.

Don't wait until you get well, lose the weight, or get the new job, or the new relationship. Begin now - do the best you can.