Mad.

I'm mad at myself, not you.

I'm mad for always being nice, always apologizing for things I didn't do, for getting attached, for making you my life, depending on you, wasting my time on you, thinking about you, forgiving you, wishing for you, dreaming of you,

But most of all, for not hating you.. which I know I should...

But I just can't.

Cheat.

You're right. People do lie, and cheat, and stab you in the back.

There will be people who use you, and don't love you even though

they say they do. But you can't let that stop you from living. Because

there are people out there who do love you, and would never hurt you.

You have to find those people and keep them in your life forever.

Crush.

I'm too shy

to tell you

how I feel

so I'll hide behind

timid smiles and

soft hellos

I'm afraid

if I ask you

"what do you think

of me?"

you reply will be

"I don't."