Goodbye.

http://www.wattpad.com/17873384-save-me-from-myself-goodbye#.Uahy0dJHJxU

As I was on wattpad, I found this girl who made the poem 'Revenge'. So, I sent a request to write a poem for me. So here we are :

Goodbye;

You traced my wounds,

and kissed my scars,

Made me feel as though,

I was floating on stars.

You held my hand tight,

Promised we'd get through,

Then everything changed,

I wasn't good enough for you.

She's skinnier and prettier,

Her life isn't a mess,

She's easier to deal with,

Just confess.

Don't tell me a lie,

I just want to know,

Will you take her everywhere,

We used to go?

Will she get the bracelet,

You gave with your heart,

When you promised me forever,

At the very start?

Will she become the photo,

For the background of your phone,

The one you always look at,

When you're feeling alone?

Tell me the truth,

I don't want another lie,

End it quick and leave,

Before I start to cry.

But when it all goes down,

She starts to back away,

Don't come back to me,

Don't use me that way.

I know I said forever,

But right now I don't care.

You left me hurting,

So your pain is only fair.

I don't need you anymore,

Now that I'm happy and free,

So I'm leaving you behind,

You're just another memory.

Forgive you?

So after a few months we didn't talk, she send me message :

Assalamualaikum :)

Weh, aku ada benda nak bagitau ni. Firstly, aku nak mintak maaf atas kejahilan aku sbb tak pernah sedar yg aku pernah buat hang terasa.

And aku jugak nak minta maaf bila aku tak jadi kawan bila kau mmg perlukan seorang kawan.

Well, i was offered to sbpi tun abdul razak. it was unexpected. tapi aku kena pergi. harus pergi.

Aku takut sebenarnya, tapi aku kena berani. Sampai bila nak jadi pengecut kan?

Aku tak minta banyak. Pls forgive me dari hujung rambut hingga hujiung kaki. and wish me luck. Thanks for everything :)

((p/s; sotong yg hang bagi tu aku simpan lagi.))

assalamualaikum adriana azizan :)

Yea, congratulation. Just, I really wanna tell you if you come back to home online so whatever, just please don't talk to me. Or I will not forgive you forever. You are the one can ruin my days my weeks my months my years.

The Girl.

the girl that used to walk
into my house
like it was her own
and could take soda
from my fridge comfortably

was

the same girl who used to share
snacks with me
on a Friday night
as we sat together
in my room
and slept in her bed
while I slept on the floor

and she began to resent me

and then
she became a girl
I didn't recognize
and she didn't even wave
when I walked past her

I guess I was only
her friend until
someone better
showed up

I think I should stop post poem like this. It changed nothing. I should move on.