Non Stop Story

Because every time I tell myself that I'm over you, that your a complete asshole, from out of nowhere, you're right there. In my mind, in my dreams, your everywhere. Is it a sign? Am I going to love you till the day I die?Am I going to forget you some time? I feel desperate, I want to know what I want. I want to know if I want you. I want to know if I need you. All I can say is that I can't live with or without you.

With you, I'm full, I'm me. But you've changed, I changed. We changed. Us changed. Suddenly we're walking side by side and nothing comes out of our mouths. Just as if we've never been friends. We don't have conversation, we talk about the same old things, nothing personal, nothing strong, nothing sad and nothing weak.

Without you, I'm empty, I'm lost. I can't stop thinking about you. You won't stop showing up in my dreams. You won't stop appearing in my thoughts. But yet again, I forget about you, I forget that you exist, I forget what we had, our past, our friendship. 

Day after day, I'm realizing that our friendship is fading away. That we are so over. This is why I get sad and feel so lonely. And again, I start to think that I need you.

And the story starts over and over again. Non-stop. And I want this to stop.